Before encountering Jesus I was dealing with pressure from my parents to do well because I had always done well in school and always been the “perfect child”. I was scared of disappointing my parents and my family and friends. A lot of my sorority sisters always just assumed I was hooking up with guys even when they were just my friends and I was also dealing with the stereotype of being in a sorority from my friends back home, who thought it was just one big party.
I didn’t feel like I could follow Jesus because I was so preoccupied in my grades, my need to get into med school and the way others viewed me. I was not doing well to achieve that and because my identity was wrapped around in what my family and friends thought about me I was afraid they’d view me as a failure. I did not feel love or accepted unless I was able to be perfect.
But God was able to grab my attention. I listened to Ben and Erik’s stories about how they came to faith and was encouraged. I always felt like I wasn’t there yet or I had to be perfect before following Jesus. I wanted to follow Jesus but I wasn’t sure how to do it. I just didn’t feel like I knew what that was or that I would ever be ready.
After the study on the bleeding woman it kind of hit home for me, I related to the woman but didn’t feel like I had the faith to touch Jesus’ cloak because I wasn’t worthy enough of it. After praying with Nick and Ben I realized that I am worthy and God wants to love me and accept me and lead me if I will let him, if I give everything up to the Lord.
I chose God to be the center of my life because I realized that God loves me and accepts me just the way that I am, and that I AM good enough, I am worthy enough – It doesn’t matter if I don’t do well on a test or if I make a mistake, God still loves me and I am saved through Him. He has brought healing to places where I felt the most burdened and unaccepted.
I’m realizing that I no longer feel a tremendous pressure or stress to do well in school for others, I am bringing all my burdens and worries to God and I feel so much relief and joy knowing that I am loved, I am accepted, I am a daughter of God.
I made a recommitment last week to follow Jesus and I’m still in a place where I’m learning and growing. I know I’m not perfect and I know it’s a process, but I’m excited to see how Jesus will work in my life.
Nico’s Testimony – Delt Greek IV Leader
Sharing my faith among my fraternity brothers isn’t something I do by bringing up faith and Jesus in every conversation. I know people like that, but for me, that’s not my style. I was never really exposed to evangelism and proclaiming my faith to people while growing up. I come from a Catholic family and most people I knew were Catholic like me.
But coming to college and getting involved with Greek InterVarsity has helped me see how to be a light for Jesus in a respectable way inside the fraternity. I have grown a lot in being a witness this last year.
I am known in the house as a Christian; people know that I read the Bible, that I pray every night, that I go to church. I even have a rosary that was a gift from a friend hanging in clear sight above my desk. Being president of my chapter, it’s easier for me to make my faith known because I have a spotlight on me. That is a double-edged sword, because it’s also easier to see when I mess up and act human, which, last time I checked, I was.
Even though I am not the most verbal guy in my witness, I do make space for people to explore Jesus inside the fraternity. As the President I have started a Bible Study for my brothers that I lead. I am just learning how to do this, but it is important that I make space for people whom are intimidated by church to talk about faith right in the house. I still get really nervous when it is time for me to be vocal about my faith, and some times I shy away, but God is growing me as his witness.
I share my faith with my fraternity brothers because being a Catholic- Christian is a major part of my life – it has defined me. I’m known in the house as such, and I take pride in my Catholic upbringing, so why not tell people about it? Why not show them the best parts of me and proclaim something – Jesus- that has saved my life and made me successful to where I am now?
Meet Kevin Hokanson. Kevin is a SigEp from San Diego State University. Kevin served as the new member educator for one semester and is currently the VP of Facilities Management for his Fraternity. Kevin lives in his Fraternity and is a huge influence to the Brothers in his chapter. 3 months ago, Kevin and I met and wanted to talk Christianity. He said that he isn’t really open to Christian but had one question that no one could really explain to him, “Why do Christian pray/worship?” The answer to this question helped to open Kevin’s mind a little to hearing about God.
3 months later, we invited Kevin to come to Greek InterVarsity and the one day he went, he felt God speak to him through the Samaritan Woman at the well, John 4. I started meeting with Kevin weekly after this going through the Gospel of John and answering any question that would arise. Two weeks ago, we had a Greek IV study on raising Lazarus from the dead which mainly focused on putting our hope in Jesus.
After this study, Kevin asked if we could chat in his room. He asked me, “Why put hope in Jesus? I’ve put my hope in things in the past and they’ve let me down.” This led to explaining Jesus’ everlasting and unfailing hope. We met Monday, April 30th to talk through John 5-10. Kevin asked questions about the unbelief of the Pharisees, the response of the Jews and how they wanted more and more answers yet could not see, and the man born blind–the difference between spiritual and physical brokenness/healing. Kevin then asked to see the 4 Circles Diagram. Afterwards, I asked Kevin what circle he sees himself in. He said that he saw himself in the third circle. This was a perfect opportunity to explain what it actually means to be in the third circle and have a relationship with Jesus.
After running through the 4 Circles, reexplaining the gospel and asking him if he wants to pray to accept Jesus and start a relationship with God he responded by saying that he wants to start his relationship with God right now and prayed the prayer to accept Christ into his life! Please be praying for Kevin as he begins his relationship with Jesus!